Diverticulitus

I suffer from Diverticulitus and have been hospitalized 3 times since the first of April. Every colonoscopy that has been scheduled for me, has been interrupted by another infection, hence putting off my surgery. I just missed this last chance by a measly 5 fucking days. I'm in pain both physically and mentally. The company I work for has been spectacular through this, but Christ Almighty, enough is enough. Just allow another flare up to stay away so I can have a colonoscopy and then surgery to remove the diseased portion of my Large Intestine. Am I asking to much? It's not like I'm asking for World Peace or the Cubs to win the Series. (Both which I hope to live to see in my Lifetime)